Thirty-sixth Entry [Video]

[reckless_eagle]

[Someone's been avoiding everyone the mansion in a fit of awkward and angst since the mirrors showed up!]

[There's really just too much for Poland to deal with right now. His friend-breakup with Elaine, his encounter with Mirror Lithuania, the knowledge that Mirror Poland was free to scare Aang and hurt Nai and maybe do bad things to his other friends... He's curled up underneath his cloak in a corner of the overgrown garden at the edge of the forest, where he's been hiding out today.]

[The knowledge that his memories were able to disrupt the Mansion itself helps him, gives him hope, makes him feel more powerful. But...]

...I like, can't believe I forgot about them. I just... forgot. My own people... A nation totally shouldn't...

Gawd, this is lame.

Um. Is everyone like, okay and stuff? Apparently my mirror was a mega-bitch to some of you, so like. Uh. Yeah. Everybody cool?

Comments

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Where you're from and where I'm from, yes. But what about where she's from? You've forgotten that your world view isn't the only one that matters here.

[The boy shrugged.]

But it's your choice if you want to hurt both of you by cutting her off like that. No skin off my ass.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

She hurt me first.

[The trouble with nations is that it's hard, no matter how old they get, for them to stop thinking that "when they hit you, hit them back harder" is the way to deal with most if not all interpersonal problems.]

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Then I guess you showed her. Feel better?

[He's mentally rolling his eyes.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

If I were, like, why would I be talking to you about it? But there's like, not much else I can do, so you know, whatevs.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Horseshit. You could go back and apologize for overreacting. Tell her that she means a lot to you.

[He reached out and ruffled Poland's hair. He reminded him a bit of Remus.]

I'll tell you a secret. I've got a mate back home. He's a werewolf. Didn't tell us a thing about it till my best mate and I figured it out.

Even then he didn't want to tell us.

His reason, he was trying to protect us. Protect himself too. 'E figured if we knew what he was we wouldn't want to hang out with him anymore.

You know what we did? We accepted it. Sometimes people lie to you, sometimes they hurt you without thinking. It's not always that they're bad people mate. It's that they're trying to protect themselves. Just like you.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Poland frowns, fussing with his shirtsleeves. He's trying to still sound stubborn, but failing a little, largely because he thinks Sirius is a priest and priests' advice is to be followed whenever possible.]

I... I'd like, rather not have friends if they're going to hurt me...

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

So you'd rather be alone? Because anyone can hurt you.

[He sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose again. This bloke really sounded like Remus.]

I've tried it, it sucks.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

I did, too. For like... centuries. No one but my bosses, and sometimes some of my people.

...I...

I could like, keep Liet. That way I wouldn't be alone but no one would betray me.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

He could still hurt you ... without realizing it.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

I know that! I just.... love him too much to care.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

And he'd want you to be happy, right?

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

Like, no matter what.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

And would you be genuinely happy all alone with no one but him?

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

.........Yes...?

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Don't lie.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

...Well, I'd like, need a Boss, too. And my people.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Well, you don't have them here. So you have to make due with being a regular bloke.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

No, I like, have to deal with being a Nation without his children. Which sucks way harder.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Even so, to the rest of us you're a regular bloke. You're gonna have to go through regular bloke stuff. Like friendships.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't know how to deal with that, so... have some silence ._.]

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Nations can learn and adapt right?

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

Duh? We'd like, stagnate otherwise. No good.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Then that's what you need to do here.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

I'm like, not gonna go running back to her. I'm totally not the one who did something wrong!

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you both did.