reckless_eagle | Thirty-sixth Entry [Video]

Thirty-sixth Entry [Video]

[Someone's been avoiding everyone the mansion in a fit of awkward and angst since the mirrors showed up!]

[There's really just too much for Poland to deal with right now. His friend-breakup with Elaine, his encounter with Mirror Lithuania, the knowledge that Mirror Poland was free to scare Aang and hurt Nai and maybe do bad things to his other friends... He's curled up underneath his cloak in a corner of the overgrown garden at the edge of the forest, where he's been hiding out today.]

[The knowledge that his memories were able to disrupt the Mansion itself helps him, gives him hope, makes him feel more powerful. But...]

...I like, can't believe I forgot about them. I just... forgot. My own people... A nation totally shouldn't...

Gawd, this is lame.

Um. Is everyone like, okay and stuff? Apparently my mirror was a mega-bitch to some of you, so like. Uh. Yeah. Everybody cool?

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

You got it in one.

[He continues walking before turning to face Poland.]

Now, how long has it been since you last gave your confession?

Ummm... How long have I been here? [Because he's not counting that time when he was freaked out and Elaine was obviously an angel and stuff, since she's apparently evil or something]

I guess like, 7 months-ish. Maybe a little more, but definitely not 8.

And what do you have to confess to me today?

Okay, it's like, been kinda forever, so I'm gonna try and break it down into groups, so I don't forget stuff.

I've like, been pretty bad about sloth since I got here. It's like, there's not much I actually have to do, without my people or my boss or the fields to tend, so I sleep pretty late a lot of days. Like, until well after sunrise.

Vanity... Ummm, I get pretty bad about that, too. I like, get a lot of clothes from the closet, and sometimes I get pretty pissed when people tell me I'm, you know, centuries out of date or whatever. So kind of a pride-wrath thing, too, I guess... Oh, and, um. Sometimes, I like, dress like a girl? Not in public unless Liet's there to make sure no one tries anything weird, but like... yeah.

Pride... I've like, gotten majorly pissed at some of the future nations for talking about me like I'm weak. Like, Prussia, especially. I got in a fight with him, 'cause he kept talking about me like I was his vassal and I'm totally not...

Gluttony and excess... It's totally hard not to use too much stuff when it's all just there for free, you know? So there's probably a ton of little things that I can't remember, plus my room is way nicer than it probably needs to be.

Avarice and despair... I think I'm actually pretty good, there. I mean, I've been pretty down lately, but I don't think I'm like, dwelling on it or anything, it's just that everything's been kinda shitty, right?

Okay. Um.

Wrath.

I've fought a few different people since I came here. America, Prussia, Liet's mirror, that totally annoying little short man that I think isn't here anymore... I didn't kill any of them, though, we just fought. And I like, slapped Pakistan, during one event. I was... I was like, jealous of all the attention Liet paid her.

I...I killed the Major. I'd like, do it again, if I found him again. I hate him for what he did to innocent people here, and to my people in his world, and... and what he did to me. I really, really hate him, and I know it's not cool for me to hold on to my anger like that, but I just... I don't know.

I was mad at Germany for a long time, too. Because of what I heard about the future. I guess I'm still kind of mad at him, but not like I was at first.

So I, um. I like, guess that leaves lust.

...I...

I like, kiss Lithuania, sometimes. Even though we're just betrothed, and not married yet. I know we probably shouldn't, but it feels really nice...

And I wanted him when he was with someone else. And I... I like, think sinful thoughts about him sometimes. About America, too, once, when we were playing dress-up and he took his clothes off, but like, I wasn't tempted or anything, it's just that, um, yeah...

Oh! And like, this has nothing to do with lust at all, but I've gotten super drunk a few times. Like the time I passed out at Ryohei's place! Also, I'm way mad at someone who used to be my friend for lying to me all this time.

Okay, I think that's pretty much it!

Hmmm.
[Sirius frowned as he listened, forming an answer in his head.]
You should start getting up early. Find things to do like long walks and yard work. Give yourself more time to ... revel in the glory of the Lord's work. Instead of getting angry about people calling you outdated, do something about it. Get some fashion mags from the library and change up you look.

[He made a face at the mention of Prussia.]

Bloke's a tosser anyway. He's not worth your time or anger.

[As Poland continued he just listened to the rest. After all, he didn't think any of this was really bad. People fought sometimes and that was cool. People snogged sometimes too and that was cool too.

Finally, when he realized Poland was waiting for an answer, he spoke.]

God wouldn't be mad at you for any of that mate. Oh, and snogging and thoughts don't count as lust. We only count shagging as lust these days.

"Shagging"...?

...Oh. Dude, no, nothing like that! We're like, waiting until we get married... Liet's mirror tried, when I thought he was Liet, but I totally shut him down!

Then you don't have any lust to tell me about.

T-That's totally good to hear!

You know, seeing as we could be shoved out of this place at any second, you should get to that sinning so you've got more to tell me.

[Laughs]

You're like, way funny... Okay, so like, what do I need to do for penance?

[He considered this carefully.]

Do five our father's and something lustful over the comms.

Or, you can bathe naked in the ocean so that the Lord can wash your sins.

I'll like, do the Our Father's and the bathing as soon as I can!

Thank you, Father ♥

Edited 2010-08-09 06:57 (UTC)

You forgot about something lustful.

That was like, funny the first two times, Father. Don't push it, 'kays?

[He raised a brow.]

I will when you tell me what's really bothering you.

[Eep.]

...Um.

I like, feel bad about forgetting my people and all my bosses and my history and stuff? Also I tried to punch the Queen, but if killing the Major doesn't count then I guess that doesn't, either. And. And my mirror got out, right, and hurt a bunch of my friends, and I'm not even sure about half the stuff he did 'cause they won't tell me so I know it's bad, and if I hadn't gotten arrested maybe they wouldn't have been hurt like that...

And there's this friend I have, right? Or... used to have. 'Cause we can't be friends anymore, 'cause she's friends with Satan.

And... And I might have kind of not talked to Liet in like ages 'cause I'm scared that I'll flip out if he tries to touch me because of what his mirror tried to do, I mean, I'm already pretty jumpy sometimes 'cause of what the Major did that once and if I freak out about being hugged it could totally make him think I'm not into him or something and that's not it... a-and like, my mirror, everyone says he's kind of a total skank, and what if he hurt Liet or did... d-did something lustful with him? I like, don't even know how I'd deal with that, so I haven't gone home in like a week because I don't know what to do, and, um. I really miss him. And I'm scared.

[He held up his hands.]

Woah, you haven't gone home yet? Mate, that boy of yours is going to be worried. You've got to tell him you're alright.

[Eeps a little]

But... but like, when I tell him I'm all right when there's stuff bothering me he always knows and then he worries more!

Because he loves you. That's why he worries.

[Sirius sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger.]

Look mate. That bloke of yours loves you very much. Maybe you should try talking to him before you talk to God.

...But I'm scared to.

[Poland: the kind of man who isn't scared to fight Nazi cyborgs with only a sword or charge straight at people who are charging straight at him on horseback with lances, but gets freaked the Hell out about emotionally intense conversations or talking to strangers. Who said girly boys are more in touch with their emotions?]

What if I've messed something up? I've... I've like, never done this kind of thing before, you know? Like... having a boyfriend.

I'm rather sure he's the same way. Avoiding him's going to cause more trouble then not avoiding him.

no subject

no subject

no subject

1/?

2/4

no subject

4/5 I lied before

DONE

Re: DONE

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject