Fifty-Second Entry [Video/Action]

[reckless_eagle]

[Poland appears to be walking around unsupervised, which the doctors may note that he's not allowed to do, because his delusions include something about being a knight and he's gotten into some pretty heated arguments with the staff. In light of his oppositional-defiant disorder, though, it's probably not all that surprising to see him breaking the rules.]

[He's also wearing one of the pretty dresses that were in his closet, which should at least please the nice men in the white coats who keep trying to get him to accept that he is a she.]

So like, what gives? Is the Queen like, running out of ideas or something? 'Cause the hospital thing is so old news.

And like, why does the name on my door say "Felicja"? That's like, a girls' name! It was locked, too--I like, had to spend forever getting it open!

Well, whatever. Like, how's everyone dealing with this one so far? The food here sucks almost as bad as the last hospital's. Liet, where are you? You should totally make me something.

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[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

...Dude, no it's not.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

...It is. You will see tonight.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

It's totally not, though! It was like, St. Andrew's Day four days ago!

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

It will be alright, Felicja. It's not that different.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

...Felicja?

[He has a bad, bad feeling about this all of a sudden.]

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

....

Yes. [Very soft, in a very sad tone. It seems that he hoped for too much.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Poland is really sure he's not comfortable with this, but. Liet looks upset. And he's his husband, and he loves him, so...]

Liet... That's like, not...

[He reaches for his husband's hand softly]

...What's wrong?

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

...It will be alright. [He takes the hand and tries to force a smile.] It will be alright. They said that they could even reschedule the surgery to an a bit earlier date, if there is enough of a progress...

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

S-Surgery?!

[Shit, son, don't scare him like that! He's from a point in time where surgery means "you'll probably die anything, but you'll definitely die if we don't do something", pretty much without exception O_O]

I don't--I-I'm fine, Liet! Why would I need surgery?!

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

To reverse what they did to you before. ...it will be alright, they are very good at what they are doing, they have done reconstructional surgery many times before and have the best track record in the country.

I wouldn't let anyone else do that for you.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

Like, no one did anything to me! What are you even talking about?

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

They did. [He takes the blond's hand and lays it against his heart, his own hand resting above it.] Please, remember who you are. Who you really are. I miss you... the children miss you. They ask for you every night. [He can't show them their mother like this. But only a few more months, and they can at least visit again.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

...Liet, we don't... we can't... [It's just not possible for them to have kids.]

We like, both knew that getting into this.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

[The pain in Toris's eyes is strong now, shock and a deep sadness coming together.] Please... I don't care about much else, but- don't forget our children.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

But...!

[This is really hurting Poland for a number of reasons. It's hard to be reminded of how they can't have kids together, and he doesn't like to see Liet so hurt, but he doesn't want to lie about this, can't just play along...]

I... L-Liet, you're... what you're talking about, it's... it's like, not real! This is who I am, and you--you said you'd always love me for that, and like... You know we don't have kids. You know we...

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

[He digs into his pocket and produces a wallet, from which he produces a photograph. There are three people in it, Toris himself and two young children that are very clearly his and Felicja's.] Their names are Emilia and Casimier.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Poland freezes. He's just... he can't even deal with this. There is a little girl with Liet's eye color and Liet's smile and hints of his own facial structure, and a little boy with wavy hair like Liet's and eyes that are his, and he wants it to be real so badly it hurts.]

... What...

[His hand shakes as he pushes the photograph gently away from himself.]

It's not real. It... Liet, why would you pretend something like that?

[NOT GOING TO CRY, NOT GOING TO CRY, NOT GOING TO CRY <\3 ;A;]

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

[Toris is built a bit closer to the water, he's already crying, though he tries to hold them back. It is painful, hurts so much to see his wife reject her children like this.] Darling, please... I thought... [He thought that she was getting better; that she was wearing a dress had certainly seemed like a good sign.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[It really, really hurts to see Liet so in pain over this. He brushes the taller man's tears away with the pad of his thumb, biting worriedly at his own lip.]

You thought...?

[He takes a deep breath.]

...I really think you're wrong, Liet. I. We're in Wonderland, and this is just the Queen messing with your head again. But... um. It can't hurt to try for a little while, I guess? 'Cause, like, if I'm right and this isn't real, Wonderland will change back and you'll understand. And if... if you're right...

[Liet can't be right. But if him refusing to admit the possibility is going to make Liet THIS hurt, he can pretend. Just for a couple of days.]

I like, know you want what's best for me. And... I can like, try? But I don't... I don't really know what you think is wrong with me, and, um... I don't know. I'll really try, though, ok?

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

You were wearing one of the dresses that I picked for you, and... and I thought that you had accepted who you are, and that everything would look up and that we could soon go home and everything could be like it was before...

[He stops and tries to straighten up. He shouldn't let himself go like this.] Thank you.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

...Whatever the deal is... We'll like, get through it together, okay?

[HUGS!]

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

...I can ask my boss if I can bring Emilia and Casimier here tomorrow. Just... please don't mention that you let them change your body? They don't know that. I'm sure they would love to see their mother again.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Even to Poland, this sounds like a Bad Idea. But... It will make Liet happy, right? And what if there are kids?]

...'Kay. Sure. Just, um... what did I do that I'm not supposed to mention?

[And how the Hell could he be someone's mother o.o]

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

...Please pretend that you are still female?

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

But I wasn't--

[TRYING TO PLAY ALONG. HNGH.]

...Okay, I won't.