Twenty-First Entry [Accidental Video]

[reckless_eagle]

[Remember how Poland was all emo over boy stuff yesterday?]

[It got worse.]

[DISCONSOLATE WEEPING.]

[Also, he's doing his weeping in a ludicrously well-furnished bedroom, in a mildly skanktastic nightgown and an almost-sheer robe. Because that's how it's done in the soaps, y'all :|b]

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[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

[She leans over to hug him, careful to not let him touch her back; no matter how dramatic the situation, she's still mindful to not let anyone see her wings.]

But if he's dead, isn't it all for the better to have another person that cares about you enough to want to be married with you?

[Remember that all of her knowledge about people's love life is from TV dramas, comedies and things like that.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

But like, I still love Liet, more than anything! I totally don't think it's fair to Wolfram to marry him like that, and I love him, too, but that's so new that I don't know if it will really last, and I seriously think I did a really bad thing accepting his proposal...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

If you love him, and he loves you, and you both want it to work, then it will work.

[Because it always does, even if one of them was taken before.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

What if I don't really love him? What if I'm just scared to be alone?

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

Why would you? You always had your friend, and now just decided to want someone else... before Lithuania died.

[Rummaging trough the nation's head very carefully.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[In Poland's head: But there was no way Lithuania would have wanted me as a lover. If I thought that there was a chance with him, I wouldn't have told Wolfram what I did, wouldn't have kissed him or accepted his proposal...]

But like... I don't know. It's... like, complicated...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

But how is everything connected? One of them is your friend, and one's your lover... Had both of them survived, then you could have kept both close at the same time.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

I... I'm in love with Liet. For much longer than I've loved Wolfram. I'm more sure about than I am about anything else...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

But you can't have him. Never could.

[Too matter of fact for the drama, which gets her a threatening backround music. Some script writer will die for this later on, it doesn't fit her image.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

It would have been better not to have Wolfram than to lose Liet completely. I... He like, said he was happy for us, but on the video of the accident, he said he thought I didn't need him anymore, and that...

[That couldn't be further from the truth.]

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

But it is better to have Wolfram than to not have anyone.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

It's not that different from not having anyone if Liet's gone.

[He meant everything to me.]

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

You have to create new family. New memories.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

No.

There's like, no one who can replace him for me.

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

...You want to follow him?

[Her stare is very intense now. Maybe... Fang uses that sometimes with his black wings, just the other way round. Her wings are white and pure...]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

...I don't want to be without him.

[That is neither a yes nor a no \o/]

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

[She guids him into a sitting position and unfolds her fings, folding them back around Poland, embracing him.]

He wouldn't want you to die.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[He hugs her back, a little shakily]

I could live forever. I... I like, can't stand the thought of outliving him for so long that I can't remember his smile...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

Then you should. If you really loved him that much, you will never really forget him. And he will be with you. Max told me that we never leave those that we love.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

I don't want--It already hurts too much!

[He's... kind of in a stage of grief where there is no right thing to say ;;]

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

[Then she just won't say anything and only brush the feathers of her wings over his hair.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[And he will just cling and cry, because obviously being pretty makes him the next thing to a stereotypical woman in drama-land!]

It's... It's like, not fair...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

[Defs. She wants to tell him that it never is, because when has life been fair to the flock, but doesn't. Instead, she curls up in his lap and leans her head against his shoulder, wings still tight around him.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Man, if Poland were more attached to his Man Pride, he'd feel a little dumb about sitting here clinging to a little girl ;;]

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

[If Angel wasn't influenced by the event she would never let him cling to her.]