Twenty-First Entry [Accidental Video]

[reckless_eagle]

[Remember how Poland was all emo over boy stuff yesterday?]

[It got worse.]

[DISCONSOLATE WEEPING.]

[Also, he's doing his weeping in a ludicrously well-furnished bedroom, in a mildly skanktastic nightgown and an almost-sheer robe. Because that's how it's done in the soaps, y'all :|b]

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[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

[Elaine has gone to his room in the hopes of apologizing for her earlier harsh words. She leans against his door, knocking.]

Poland?

[The sound of crying... scares her.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[He sniffles into a silky handkerchief, rubbing his eyes with the back of his hand before he looks up at the door]

C-Come in...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

[Don't ask how she got here, or why she suddenly got this trustful, but little girls just are like that in drama. Have a little blond girl with white wings sitting next to you, leaning against your shoulder and hugging your arm.]

What happened?

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

[She opens the door slowly. Her eyes are still directed toward the floor as she begins to speak.]

I... shouldn't have said those things. I don't know what came over me, and I'm sorry. I was wrong... I know that Liet hurts you a lot, but if you love him... then I know that it will all work out, someday. I can believe in that.

And with Wolfram, that's your choice, too! If you want to be with him, then... [She looks up to see him sobbing and suddenly her voice catches in her throat.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[He blinks, then just flops down next to her and bawls]

Oh, Angel... I've made such a terrible mistake! I like, thought my best friend could never love me back, so I decided to be with someone else... but I was wrong, and now I'm engaged and I still love Liet but he's dead and it's a-all my fault for being such a fool...!

[...About half of that sounded like words, btw. The rest sounded like miserable, choking sobs.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[The level of misery in his voice would make the lead singer in any emo band absolutely livid with jealousy.]

Elaine... Elaine, I don't know what to do! I thought Liet didn't want to be with me, so I... I told Wolfram I'd marry him, but I still love Liet so much and that makes it all feel so wrong, and now he's dead and I wasn't there for him!

[SOBBING!]

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

[After a pause, she sits down beside him and pulls him into a hug.] Shh... It's alright.

Liet is... is dead?

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Clings to her and keeps on sobbing. He's like a weeping machine!]

Y...Yes... It's not all right! I know he was upset about my engagement, and he told Muscovy after the accident that I... that I didn't need him anymore, so it was all right for him to...!

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

[Elaine studiously ignores the fact that his tears don't stain her dress at all.]

For him to... die? But then, that means that...!

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Man, that's some dramariffic background music, huh?]

I should have realized! If... If I'd like, known, maybe he'd still be here...

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

[And the lighting is just so... perfect.]

No, you can't blame yourself for this. These things... they happen. That's just how life is.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Ain't it just!]

I... I like, never told him I loved him...

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry Poland.

But... I'm sure that he knows, now that he's in a bettr place.

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

[She leans over to hug him, careful to not let him touch her back; no matter how dramatic the situation, she's still mindful to not let anyone see her wings.]

But if he's dead, isn't it all for the better to have another person that cares about you enough to want to be married with you?

[Remember that all of her knowledge about people's love life is from TV dramas, comedies and things like that.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

But... But like, I don't want to be without him! How am I supposed to live like this?!

[....Yeah, even normal Poland thinks thats a wee bit over the top.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

But like, I still love Liet, more than anything! I totally don't think it's fair to Wolfram to marry him like that, and I love him, too, but that's so new that I don't know if it will really last, and I seriously think I did a really bad thing accepting his proposal...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

If you love him, and he loves you, and you both want it to work, then it will work.

[Because it always does, even if one of them was taken before.]

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

[They seem to have completely forgotten that death isn't permanent here.]

I don't think there's any other choice. But you're strong, Poland... You're a country! You'll survive, like always.

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[Well,of course! It would be less ~dramatic~ if they remembered.]

I don't want to if he's not here! Like, what use do I have for a life where I won't ever see him smile again, or feel his hands in mine? I can't take this, Elaine!

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

What if I don't really love him? What if I'm just scared to be alone?

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

...

[Oh god he's making her cry too. Time for a dramatic monalogue?]

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

Why would you? You always had your friend, and now just decided to want someone else... before Lithuania died.

[Rummaging trough the nation's head very carefully.]

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[PFFFT, YOU KNOW IT!]

I've loved him since we were children... since the very first time we formed an alliance... Even when he was a pagan, I loved to see the light in his eyes, loved the wind in his hair when he rode and the sound of his voice when he sang... To think that all those things are gone... It kills me, Elaine. I don't... I don't know if I can keep living like this. My best friend is gone. The light of my life has just... disappeared. There's nothing that can take this pain from me!

[reckless-eagle.livejournal.com]

[In Poland's head: But there was no way Lithuania would have wanted me as a lover. If I thought that there was a chance with him, I wouldn't have told Wolfram what I did, wouldn't have kissed him or accepted his proposal...]

But like... I don't know. It's... like, complicated...

[talks-to-fish.livejournal.com]

But how is everything connected? One of them is your friend, and one's your lover... Had both of them survived, then you could have kept both close at the same time.